Gush Of Horror (18+)

The Day is dark and gloomy no one is around. I feel my self falling apart and hanging by a string Life has nothing left to bring. My mind died years ago I had nothing to hold on to. My eyes seemed to slowly close and no one even knows. In my breath I felt stressed in my mind the damnedest things. In my nightmare pleasant screams. I knew I was changing in to something, something that's always controlled me something or someone that's always been part of me. I excused it, as if it was never there I slowly closed all my doors to my house so no one would stare. Many come around just to knock on my door and see the one that's lying naked on the hard wood floor. I ranted I raved I felt my self cave. I was in a place in my mind, a dark dark stage. A place I had no power over. I heard soft voices telling me what to do Angry gushes of life, saying I was threw. It was on a cold winter night I watched out my window as the fog began, The snow covered every light that I had once seen. The trees were blowing meanly in the wind leaves falling to the ground and would never be put back to gather again. I was like a helpless leaf, that would float across town, I was like a ghost that was drifting through thin air. I had not a care for you, or what you do or my self. I decided to take a shower and my feet touched the cold dented floor No matter how hot the shower seemed I could not feel it anymore. It was as if I was taking a shower in the rain still everyone looking at me. I took a knife to the shower to cut out the eyes inside of me. I washed my hair and my beautiful body. slowly pushed the knife in to my Abdomen blood gushed out along with the rain, no more eyes to see no more of anything. Written December 22nd, 2001 © on Dec 21 2001 05:48 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 16