Heartaching

My heartache beats with every night of troubled sleep. I ache and cannot kill this pain. Disease of the past has crossed my path. I wish things would had left me behind but im out of time. I cannot change my self, This is how I am, So take me as I am, or nothing at all. Sometimes I think I have control over everything I see, But I am wrong. Please say you love me and you understand and feel the same. and whisper my name. I created this perfect romance in my mind And we find our self in a place of no love with out time. Sometimes feelings are stronger then they should be, Sometimes they stay in my head like a memory. I don't know what's wrong or right or how to get along tonight with out you, Or if I should hold you or kiss you good night. Maybe love was not meant for me. But I don't think I can face you again.. I feel my heart floating in the wind Its caught in my dream catcher that's hanging over me. I wish there was no love, then there would be no you and me. I wouldn't have to be playing these childish games. I locked away my heart with a key, but you set it free In my past a memory, of how it used to be. I wish I would forget this, and leave you far behind and be faded in a crushing moment that's never been in my mind. Written November 13th, 2001 © on Nov 13 2001 06:09 AM PST, Shelly   0 • 10