I Can't Look In Our Coffin

All these flashes of lights run through me I see your beautiful face that always fades away. So many tears shed, When I found you lying alone still and cold on your bed. You were my best friend, you were the only one that understood me. I knew that this time you would not wake. I tried to shake you, I tried everything I could do But you never opened your eyes, you never took a breath, I knew you were gone and nothing was going to bring you home. While at your funeral I was scared to look in the coffin, I knew you would never look the same I looked at one of your old pictures that was framed I'm scared you won't look as beautiful as you once used to. I'm scared I will not even recognize you Every day when I look in the mirror it will be like seeing you once more but I could never compare to you. And I always thought I would die first. I always knew you had problems But never thought it would come to this, Your boyfriend and the wrest of our family will miss you, more then you would know. I never expected to watch my self die, You were my twin We were more then sisters and more then friends We always had away with reading each others minds, I always wanted us to die at the same time, when we grew old. For some reason I feel empty like my bitterness has ran dry. All tears faded away in to the question of why? You were not supposed to be the one to die it was supposed to be me But I will forever see your face in my mirror and memory. Written December 10th, 2001 © on Dec 10 2001 02:32 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10