I Want To Die
By VampireGirl
Sleepy nights, and nothing left to do.Towns empty about as empty as me,Selfishly I decide I will stay home tonight,Dance alone, under the moon light.Trying to find a reason, to be alonethinking maybe I should talk on the telephone,I called several friends, but no one was home.I sat on the couch, and listened to some musicthat got to me, made me think my life was very empty.I wonder what would of happened if I had never been born,Maybe I would be better off then I am, and no one gives a damn.How happy would everyone be with out a Shelly in this world?Do you think there would still be a spring? a cold winter day?would summer slowly fade away, I don't know.All I do know, is me standing here, thinking that no one caresisn't helping me at all, And crying and feeling sorryfor my self, wouldn't give me the feelings I need,I must feel specialI must feel pleased.while I hold a bottle in the palm of my handI'm debating whether this would be the moment to die,if I killed my self now, where would I go? heaven or hell?does anyone know.If I drank this poison, in this small bottle, would it helpmy emptiness go away, Could I finally go to the place whereI'm not alone, I think if I was somewhere different, and otherswere around, I wouldn't feel so alone.I will drink it, and see what happens, And hope that no onemisses me, or I must live with the guilt of killing my selfslowly. Written October 25th, 2001 © on Oct 25 2001 03:58 PM PST, Shelly 0 • 1
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"Sleepy nights, and nothing left to do.Towns empty about as empty as me,Selfishly I decide I will stay home tonight,Dance alone, under the moon light.Trying to find a reason, to be alonethinking maybe I should talk on the telephone,I called several friends, but no one was home.I sat on the couch, and listened to some musicthat got to me, made me think my life was very empty.I wonder what would of happened if I had never been born,Maybe I would be better off then I am, and no one gives a damn.How happy would everyone be with out a Shelly in this world?Do you think there would still be a spring? a cold winter day?would summer slowly fade away, I don't know.All I do know, is me standing here, thinking that no one caresisn't helping me at all, And crying and feeling sorryfor my self, wouldn't give me the feelings I need,I must feel specialI must feel pleased.while I hold a bottle in the palm of my handI'm debating whether this would be the moment to die,if I killed my self now, where would I go? heaven or hell?does anyone know.If I drank this poison, in this small bottle, would it helpmy emptiness go away, Could I finally go to the place whereI'm not alone, I think if I was somewhere different, and otherswere around, I wouldn't feel so alone.I will drink it, and see what happens, And hope that no onemisses me, or I must live with the guilt of killing my selfslowly...."