I'm A Bitch, That's Cruel

I've been this way for way to long. I have a cruel heart that will treat you wrong. I'm sorry for the words I say, My mouth seems to get carried away. I didn't mean to put you down, My emotions came around. I didn't mean to say you were ugly, Or say how you were gross. I didn't mean to make you cry, I didn't mean to say good bye. You know I loved you but something's change, You know I meant every single word I ever said, everyday. I cannot change the way I feel I must be honest and I must be real. You must understand, That I'm in fear of having a heart that's loving someone near. I'm scared of being alone, And my mind keeps giving me thoughts and plots of how I can hurt you more, And I think this is a very poor thing to do, When you've only been good to me. I am the bitch, with no passion, that's unhearted, and selfishly I care nothing. I'm sorry I'm this way, I cannot change a thing, Something's are out of control, But this doesn't mean anything. I wish I could be a better person, floating in the wind, But everytime I get around you satin kicks in. I say rude things that seemed right at the time, I did mean things, That were awful to do. I didn't mean to give you a dirty look I didn't mean to be this way, Over everything I've done I still love you. Maybe its better if I'm alone, I'm wicked and ill always be on my own. Its always been hard for me to believe you cared. And I will walk away, and end this relationship today, So I will hurt you no longer and I hope you can recover, and get stronger. And I'm sorry. Written November 12th, 2001 © on Nov 12 2001 08:44 AM PST, Shelly   0 • 16