Nightmares Control

I laid here thinking it would never happen thinking I could never fall asleep. Never thinking I could ever again remember a dream. Suddenly Blackness Hit the air, My wonderful husband no longer there. I was in a dream alone, I was in a crazy streaming nightmare. Everything dark, everything foggy, things not so clear. Then everything happened, and my family was there, I was a child once again, I was in a war, I was on the ground crying, like a million times before. I felt my mothers presents. Her cuss words so clear. Her bitching at my father wishing I had never been here, She wonders why I'm in her head, She wonders why I'm lying in her old antique bed. She's been dead, for along time, so many memories forgotten, But so many memories came back. I felt like a wreck. My sisters all crunched up on one couch, No heater to warm a cold morning house. Bugs ran across the floor. Screaming so loud in my ears, I was only three years old. I would turn the music up loud to drawn out the sound. I thought this was over, I thought there would be no more tears, no more closets to hide my fears, I thought I was grown, I thought I would never be alone. I was wrong, fog covers my eyes, The house burns, the deep smell of death, comes from my breath. my lungs swell, I am pale, and I will never wake up, and never makeup with my family again And hoppfully never see this in another dream. Written November 21st, 2001 © on Nov 20 2001 05:28 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10