Not Knowing
By VampireGirl
The choice was hard, And it felt harder everyday. I felt that no one would miss me anyway or remember my pled. My whole life, I felt the need to please. I always found my self bleeding, and on my knees. I needed the love, in my own various way. Ways in which you could not understand, I thrived just for one to hold my hand. I was used, By many, No one ever truly gave a damn. My aching heart found a man that ripped me apart. Everything I did felt meaningless, Time was never on my end. Once I die, Ill be placed in a shitty box placed under the cheapest dirt, and drift away. They will not even pay, for the funeral of yesterday. I hate my self, for how I've been. I can't seem to find the better part of me or learn to understand. I was gullible, I was confused, I was battered and bruised, still no one cared. No one understood. I was this way since childhood. I had the grasp of air, I could not reach, I had the broken bridge beneath my feet. I had nothing, I live for nothing. And in the end, I came out with nothing. If I had known everything would of been this way, Still I wouldn't know where I would be today. Written February 20th, 2002 © on Feb 20 2002 12:45 PM PST, Shelly 0 • 10
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"The choice was hard, And it felt harder everyday...."