Stupidity

Have you ever thought of me? Ever felt the blessing of eternity while kissing gently? Still I worry your not loving me, Not needing me. I try to play off my roles with stupidity, Maybe after all you've never cared But that was just to much to bare. To think someone I've been with for years. The only one person that would kiss away my tears, Loves me not. The one person that drinks all the time and smokes his pot. He always loved to be in the open crowd Never forgot me, or let me down. Some reason I keep hearing a voice in my head. The sound of dread. What if I'm being used? maybe your taking me for granted? is this why I play stupid? for so long I dwelled on you, Needed and loved only you. My sky is torn broke apart and can never be reborn. I suppose everyone knew the truth but me. I closed my eyes, and refused to see. Now I'm stuck in between your lies I never listened to your voice closely. you never had me completely. Stupid me. Used again, Abused... taken for granted by the same man over and over again, The one, I kiss good night, the one that understands. I suppose that's all a lie, But I should just die? I was only there on his demands. Stupid me, trying to play things off so calmly. Ill excuse my self, and yell real loud and hope you will see, That I am not making my self out to be filled with stupidity anymore. Written January 26th, 2002 © on Jan 25 2002 04:41 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10