Take Me Today.

When you die and close your eyes Where does our souls flow? Does your lungs suffocate, Does your mind debate. How are you supposed to react to fate? Does the devil, stand beside the lord waiting for judgment on you, How do you know what you are supposed to do? Must you tell the truth when you are asked a question. Must you swallow your pride and calm your self for traction. What if the heart shows your truths? Does he turn away from your youth? does he punish you? Must you stay in the dark never to see blue? When you are sentenced to death do you die? and never wake. Can not even the most profound shake, open your eyes? Can not even your hands move to whip away those tears all bottled up inside. If the intentions of your heart is good, But your thoughts are bad Does he see both sides? Must we put the leafs over our caves and holes to hide? I have so many sins, I have so many pains I wish no one could ever see. I hate my self for what I used to be. I wash my skin, But they only go deeper. They follow through the dark spaces and steeper. Its as if I'm falling apart head first in to the abundance of my heart. Save me... Let these pains flee away, I can't wash them with metal armor, or clothes of gold, I can't renew the old. How will he see me? How can I change? does he forgive me for the terrible things I've done. I have committed actions on others, and my self. I have rebelled since age 17, I ask, I pray Will you take my life today? Written January 18th, 2002 © on Jan 18 2002 11:20 AM PST, Shelly   0 • 10