This Time, I Refuse

This is new to me, But in your eyes its new to you. You've felt this freedom cure once before Now I'm giving you more. Because of you I've lost my heart, Because of you I'm falling apart. This time you promise It will be different, you'll stay with me. You will never again leave me out hanging lonely. I refuse to look once again in your eyes, I'm scared I'm afraid of what's behind. I can't handle this again. This is something I can't take, or understand I can't put my whole life on the line, for this line to break again. You say you will never leave, Ill find you asleep every morning next to me. If this is true you can count on me to be here with you. if you leave, Ill never forgive, Ill never believe. My faith will be relieved. Questions, the very thought that enters my mind Will you take me,love me hold me, and adore me? if you can't, leave turn and walk away, I won't make you stay. excuse my bluntness But I must know, Is this chance work taking? Because once again, I'm scared of breaking. our night empty I found you in the cemetery again. We made love by this very statue. Still you haunt me, you stay so far inside my memory. You're not even dead, but you used to be. This time you can't escape this time you can't travel alone, I will be in the car, Ill throw away your cell phone. Listen to me, pay attention to me, Because things can't go back to the way they used to be. I need you more then ever we must always be together. I must be your rose, I must be your loving flows. carry me, Follow me. gather your thoughts, and sleep forever next to me. touch my face, embrace my thoughts, Explain these empty flower pots. These were me, fill them with roses, Let me feel you, Let me need you, Let me touch you. I refuse to lose you. Written February 15th, 2002 © on Feb 14 2002 05:46 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10