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I knew that one day I would have to make a choice of things that were not supposed to be told. These promises grew deep in me, like mold. I wish I had never known these things, Because then I would not have to keep them inside, I wouldn't have to hide the truth behind my eyes. IM scared someone might see them, And I don't know what I might say. It was only days ago, But I feel like i've held them along way. They are hidden in my soul under a dark black hat. I wish you wouldn't of opened your mouth And told me how you felt. Your girlfriend keeps asking me, Messaging me in my ear, She wants to hear all the words you had said to me. I don't know how to say the truth, or if she would even care. But I made a promise, and I must stand tall I must keep them bottled up inside. I wonder if this makes you happy, because I only listened to you, all because I felt sorry for someone that was untrue. I never thought it would end up this way now I don't know what to do. you probably hate me because I asked to break a promise to you. I wish you would say its okay, but you won't. I haven't broken the promise yet, and I wont. but I still feel guilty like I already have. The least you could do is say thank you or happy birthday considering my birthday was the day you used me, the least you could do was keep a promise to me, But you robbed me of my feelings, and emotions that I explained to you deeply. It was only a telephone call with a deep talk about us. I guess things went this way for a reason. I guess I was just someone you could use. I was just another person you could bruise. I kept my promise, so don't worry about your self, You hurt me badly because you broke the bargain of our deal. But later in life you will regret this, and you will know exactly how I feel. Written November 11th, 2001 © on Nov 11 2001 01:46 PM PST, Shelly   0 • 10