Vertigo
By VampireGirl
A massive feeling over whelms meIt keeps me from dating or understanding the opposite sex.I wonder what has happen for me to feel this wayand gain nothing of my self. I refuse to looka man in the eyes, Or even speak a word.I panic, and throw up, And try and excuse the way I feel.My feelings touch me deeply, and I tell my self there not real.I feel my heart pounding, I get dizzy, I run in to walls.Everything is motionless when I'm feeling a withdraw.I need a cigarette, I need to get some airI must get away from him and not stay here.Vertigo kicks in, and I cannot feel my bodymotion steps in and I feel my self falling.Its something that happens now and thenits mostly when I go running, or when I lean up to fast.it happens when I'm sleeping, and the feeling doesn't pass.It leaves me with a headache, and it leaves me shaking.I think most people would think I'm clumsy but I'm not.Most people will laugh when I run in to a doorthey think I need to watch where I'm going, but they don't understand.I didn't see the door closing, It seems like my motion is off.It makes me not want to leave my house, and not be with friendsAnd I will panic and cry, if someone doesn't understand.Vertigo is a condition that i have. It has to do with motion (distance) and its hard to tell if I am moving or something else is. Written December 1st, 2001 © on Dec 01 2001 08:27 AM PST, Shelly 0 • 10
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"A massive feeling over whelms meIt keeps me from dating or understanding the opposite sex.I wonder what has happen for me to feel this wayand gain nothing of my self. I refuse to looka man in the eyes, Or even speak a word.I panic, and throw up, And try and excuse the way I feel.My feelings touch me deeply, and I tell my self there not real.I feel my heart pounding, I get dizzy, I run in to walls.Everything is motionless when I'm feeling a withdraw.I need a cigarette, I need to get some airI must get away from him and not stay here.Vertigo kicks in, and I cannot feel my bodymotion steps in and I feel my self falling.Its something that happens now and thenits mostly when I go running, or when I lean up to fast.it happens when I'm sleeping, and the feeling doesn't pass.It leaves me with a headache, and it leaves me shaking.I think most people would think I'm clumsy but I'm not.Most people will laugh when I run in to a doorthey think I need to watch where I'm going, but they don't understand.I didn't see the door closing, It seems like my motion is off.It makes me not want to leave my house, and not be with friendsAnd I will panic and cry, if someone doesn't understand.Vertigo is a condition that i have. It has to do with motion (distance) and its hard to tell if I am moving or something else is...."