You Made Me

When you look at me what do you see? Do you see another sad face in harmony? how many nights must I be alone before you ignore me completely? I would get on my knees and beg extremely. I would give my last breath, My last heartbeat. Every single night of sleep Just to hold you tonight. I don't wan't be alone forever, And I'm tired of moaning alone, and sleeping on the couch. I miss you washing my hair, and playing in the mud, How we would wrestle in the pouring rain, I miss whispering your name, I miss being your only dream I wish I could make things better now, But I'm living in a fantasy of how things used to be. Why can't you just look me in the eye? and say its over I need to hear it!, I must see it! before I know its real, Or ill hold on forever. I'm tired of acting crazy, and thinking of making love to you. I miss a pure love I thought was true. I miss you so much, and more then you could believe. And I still feel that I must be afraid! but IM deceived I keep trying to move on but with out you I'M not real. I'M just a empty thought in your head, In the story of your heart. my emotions held me back from what I should be. You lost your chance of ever getting over me. I wish you could see! that IM not a game bored for you to win! I'M a real person, living in this insanity! I want to be set free. So say you want me! because you made me. Written November 11th, 2001 © on Nov 11 2001 11:49 AM PST, Shelly   0 • 1