an open exit wound.....

Nothing in this world can take this away but something keeps it inside... A wall of hate blocks the best thing that i have ever known to leave everything, just leaves an exit wound. but it will heal and close up soon why all this torment? why all this hate? people say i am the devil, but inside they know me not i am fading and hating life its existance keeps me traped in a sacred realm i just saw tje devil himself he wants to hold my hand should i go is it all worth my last breathe will someone answer me! 1 cant understand the ways of the world 2day if i shold die before i wake i ask the lord my soul to take who can understand this fucked up life im in best things in life are free but they sure can hurt you if it hurts that bad, the lord says to cut it off at its roots my strings are no longer attached to reality i now float away in a distance im now alone, so leave me there im at the point where i just dont seem to care you can only stare but the truth of the matter is my wound has a large gap i cant belienve i put myself in all this crap i just dont give a flying flip my heart is only active for a few moments the rythem of which it beats now skips im left with scars of tring 2 become something im not my words mean nothing in this case i should just go to hell cuz i just went there and i enjoyed it the burnt, heat, and pain the hurt, heart beat, i must re-frain 4um everything that makes me smile i will always have a spot 4 something in life but i can no longer smile this exit wound has re-opend for the devil to just take my heart and crush it satin is near, i can feel him i cant let him win but if i feel this way now, i think he already did so i must say what the hay i have no more 2 say cuz, its dad in a way that i must say good day in a sad way and by the way and if i may end my life this way so leave me alone and stay away keep out of my way and let me pray that some day i can say ive found a new way... Written April 17th, 2002 © on Apr 17 2002 08:17 AM PST   0 • 1