Ode #4

I look in her eyes for the answer to my questions And all I see is there’s no cure for her obsessions No learning lessons, she looks for what will do her harm Getting hurt just for following a newer charm But I'm trying, God, I try to keep her in my heart Everytime I'm overlooked hits me right in the chin I start To wonder if there's a point to following one's soul To having faith in love, and giving up control I feel like all my work goes right into the bucket's hole I'm taking one step for each two steps farther from my goal Don't ask me why I stay around because I have no clue I'm a fool for standing right here while every stab goes through My already tattered and broken heart They tell me I am meant for you right from an open chart Our destinies are meant to be together hope it starts I wish you would just realize that we're a joke apart I pray that earth would just open right up and take me on Or that the heavens would start the vacuum and make me gone I don't know how I survive seeing you in all this pain When I'm the best thing that could hit you but you call his name Or anyone else's that obviously isn't me It doesn't matter if the man is even listening You keep driving away from that which wants your happiness And still I stay wondering which sentence will slap me next Would it be "Hey guess who I met?" Or "Damn, he left me too" Or even "God, he's such a jerk why can't he be like you?" You think that makes me feel like I'm such a creative catch I show up early to your heart but always late to snatch I get over everything that has ever caused me grief But it comes back to bite me adding to my lost relief So here I'm gonna sit until you start to see the truth That you are meant for me and I am meant to be with you Written March 9th, 2002 © on Mar 09 2002 01:22 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8