Broken Reflections

"I promised you that no matter, I would never hurt you and i would never leave you, And though no matter how hard you pushed away, No matter how much you hurt me, I never did anything in return because..."

"I hope that you burn in hell I hope that you really, really die I hope that you end up in pain I hope one day someone makes you cry I hope that you burn in hell I hope someone falls in love with you ..."

"I dont want you to leave, I really want you to stay, I know i act like i want you to go, I know that i sometimes i say things, That sometimes that i do things to hurt you, That no matter how much you ..."

"I never asked you to fall back in love with me, I never asked you to stay, Your the one that promised not to leave me, But if you want to go so bad, Theres the door, im not stoping you Its not as if i..."

"How can you say that you love me, That you need me, Sit there and beg me to stay, And than turn around and cause me so pain ?, I love you, without question, without doubt, But you hurt me to much, You..."

"Hey wait,..... You left me, You left me feeling so alone, Left me in so pain, longing for you to come back And now you tell me that you were wrong, That you need me, That "baby i still love you" But w..."

"Even though you say that you love me, I knew that i never had your whole heart, That no matter how hard i tried, You never felt free inside my arms, So i know inside that i must let you go, And if you..."

"Nothing really matters, Why cant anyone in this world see, That no matter how hard you try, No matter how much you give of yourself, The people you love, wont always love you back The people you want..."

"You say so confidently that you could do things, Do things to my mind and body thats never beeen done before. That you could put your tounge in places that i never even knew existed, That after onr ta..."

"If you ever loved me, At any time, At any moment, In your in entire life, Than you would listen to me, when i ask you, To just please walk away, You dont need to ask me any questions, No if, and, but..."

"I know that it bothers you, And i know that it shocks you, That no matter what mean things you do, No matter how many hurtful things you say, Im not leaving, That for as long as you need me, You will ..."

"We are.. Two people in pain, Two peope hurting, Two people very lost, And yet by some sick twist of fate, We seemed to have found each other, We seem to have found our own weird version of love, The k..."

"Im begging you, Please dont give up on me, Please dont leave me, I need you, I want you I have to have you in everyway, Dont listen to the negitive things i say, Dont pay attention to the hurtful thi..."

"So what if your gone, So what if you left, I mean everyone leaves me, I didnt expexct you to be differnt, But you were, Because at least everyone else said good-bye, At least they told me what i did..."

"Hey dont you know who i am, I am the great and powerful val No emotions, No feeling, Nothing comes in, Nothing goes out, I dont belive in love, I dont take the time to care about happiness So why do y..."

"Im trying really hard not to cry, Im trying just as hard not to feel, Because without you i feel so lost, Without you i feel as if i will always be alone, But i have to come to terms with the fact tha..."

"Sometimes late at nite, I long for a love that i could call my own, To touch, to feel, to be one with another, To just have someone love me, Or to have someone stay long enough to try, But sadly enou..."

"Have you ever woke up, Wishing for a car to hit you?, For a gun to find the back of your head?, For the strength to just to slit your wrist? Have you ever woke up, Hoping to just die?, To have someon..."

"Anything you ever asked of me, Without a second thought, I would have just given it, My heart, have it, My mind, dont need it, My soul, well damm leave me with something But as much as i have given, I..."

"Im so use to being strong, Because i cant take a chance on being weak, I cant allow myself to be hurt, I cant allow myself to feel, But now im asking you without hesitaion, To just hold me, Please jus..."

"Im afriad to feel, Im afraid to cry, Im afriad to be happy, Im just in so much pain, I need you, but i dont I want you, but i cant, Becuase im afriad that you will hurt me, But mostly because im afria..."

"Why can't you be more like me? Why can't you even try to see things my way? Why can't you be more blunt? Why can't you say what you think or feel, As soon as you think and feel it? Why must you play s..."

"Im sorry if im afraid to close my eyes, But im use to dreaming with my eyes openi have no idea what this is, i just wrote it , and i know it weird, im sorry, i dont know Written March 30th, 2002 © on..."

"I think its time i face reality, To look at the person i become, I think its time i start to listen, Instead of just walking away, But you have to understand, That i never wanted to hurt you I only w..."

"Please forgive me for saying this, But I think that I'm starting to fear your presence , I think im starting to fear your touch Because every time I see you, Every time you to..."

"Right now, At this exact moment, I really want to die, I really wish that i could just end it all, I have no reason to live, But to much strength to kill myself, My belief in God stops me picking up t..."

"I have no reason to believe that you ever loved me, Im not sure if you even liked me, But i am sure that you used me, That i allowed myself to be used, Because i believed that you loved me, I believed..."

"You are so right, I am dumb, I am so stupid, For allowing myself to fall in love with you, I mean I should have known better, I should have known that you don’t even  know how to love, Sadly enough, ..."

"I cant write, I cant feel, i cant do anything No words in my head to write on paper No emotions to analize, Nothing is comming in, Nothing is flowing out I cant write, I cant feel, I cant do anythingi..."

"Now that you are gone, I think of you more than ever, I wonder if you still think of me, If you find it hard not to call me, Because i find it hard not to call you, Its like im going through withhdrwa..."

"Nope, I wont, I cant, i promised myself that i wont call you, That i wont talk to you, And i can do it I think, I hope, I have to, I just have to, i cant let you know that i miss you, Ok, So put down ..."

"Maybe it just me, But ever since we said, That we dont love each other anymore, It's been well......Awkward We dont talk the same, We dont act the same, In one small moment, Everything felt so ....Aw..."

"I know i should'nt miss you, That its wrong for me to even think about you, But i can't stop, Because no matter how hard i try, Im still in love with you, Even if your no longer in love with me, Even ..."

"I never thought the day would come,. That I would have to be the one to say good-bye, If anything I thought you would be the one to leave me, But I now realize that I have to leave, Because frankly, ..."

"Im not in the mood, For who blames who, Who hurt you, Who should be sorry, Who's right, Who's wrong, Why cant you do this?, Why cant you do that?, I want to go, I need to stay, I love you, I want you,..."

"Im sorry if i tried to make you, I dont know,... Feel, To act somewhat human, To have an emotion, To try to show you more than just hate, To fill your heart up with something else besides pain, I just..."

"If my tomorrow never comes, Well than, That would really be bad, There so much I have yet to experience, Things to see, Places to go , Um , people to do, Since I have happily kept my virginity, For M..."

"I mean I tried, Lord knows how hard I tried But I just don’t love you, I twisted my heart in almost every direction, I tired to make myself feel something if anything when I kiss you, I tired to make..."

"Do you miss my voice?, My touch?, The cute things I would say?, The small things I would do? Do you miss me at all? How many times do I cross your mind? How much do you wish at this very moment I wa..."

"I never thought that I would fall in love Or at least thought I had the time to, But when I heard you say that you loved me I gave you  my heart in that exact minute, And in the second we were through..."

"It seems like I'm the only one trying, The only one fighting, To keep us together I guess forever was just a little to long to ask for But I still want you to stay` But lately you keep pushing me away..."

"Hey love, I know i havent known you that long, And you know how i hate to be so forward, But i just have to tell you right quick, That i love your smile, I love your eyes, Let me just cut to the chase..."

"Have you ever went to sleep, Wishing that tomorrow the sun would never touch your eyes? Because when it does that mean you have to live another day, Another day, in another pit of depression, If you w..."

"Call me selfish or self-centerd, But i never wanted someone's touch, Someone kiss, Someone smile, As much as i want yours, I never dreamed about someone so much, Needed someone so bad, So call me self..."

"ok, Am im losing my mind? Is everyone right?, Is there something really wrong with me?, Because nothing feels right inside anymore, I seem to have lost or destroyed whatever was left of me, And this t..."

"What would make me happy?? Do You really want to know?, Let's see, ummmmmm, Everyone leaving me the hell alone, Stop making my decsion, Quick telling me how to feel, And telling me that the few feelin..."

"If I cant make you happy, Than tell me, who can? Because I tried, But you won't let anyone close enough to get a chance to, Do you even know what happiness is? Because I don’t think you do, And I thi..."

"I want so bad to hold you, But I'm afraid that if I do , That I will once again get lost inside of you, That I will  forever lose myself  within the sick torture, That  at one time I called lovei dont..."

"Your my friend and i know thats the way it has to be, Because i dont know what it will take for you to see, That my deep and dark secret is that im in love with you, So deep in love that i dont know w..."

"It only hurts, When you say that you love me, When you say that you need me, That no matter what your not leaving It only hurts, When you say that your thinking about me, That you hope im thinking ab..."

"How dare you speak of love as if it means something As if I was supposed to feel something, As if it evens exist , Because let me tell you something , It doesn’t, it's just a state of mind It’s just a..."

"I have a fear like no other, I have the fear of being loved, Or letting anyone close  enough to loved me return Because whenever I touch love, Or love decides to touch me, It seems it just as quickly ..."

"So much pain, So much hurt, So much misery, So much loneliness, So much of nothing at all, Because it hurts to feel, It even starting to hurt  when I write, Nothing seems to make sense, Nothing ever ..."

"I have no greater want or need in this world, Than to be by your side, And the fact that I cant be, Tears me up inside, more than you will ever know Because I would live to hold you, Die to kiss you, ..."

"I know along the way your gentle has been broken That the people you loved, weren't always the right people to trust But no matter how bad I want to, I can't mend your broken heart, I can only promise..."

"He made the world, Slowly painted the sky, And yet so many don’t uplift his praises He made the flowers, made the trees With one finger caressed  the waters, And yet so many don’t pray upon his name,..."

"When I touch your face, I feel like I'm touching my guardian angel, When you touch my hand I know that I have found my soulmate, When I look into your eyes, You take my breath away, Because you see in..."

"Four lips, Two tounges, One chance to get this kiss just righti didnt know what else to write so i guess i left it like that,oh well Written April 9th, 2002 © on Apr 09 2002 07:46 AM PST   10 • 0"

"I don’t have everything A matter a fact I don’t have anything, But a broken heart, And a bunch of shattered dreams, Though I  sometimes wish that I could give you something more, Like my never ending ..."

"For the First time in my life, I'm not afraid of being hurt, Not by anything, Or even by  this special someone, Who seem to  have captured my heart in more ways than they will ever know, Who has dream..."