Anyway

You told me I was your world, your heaven, your fire You said you could be tempted by no other desire I, with my passion’s rush, gave to you all I had to give My promises of forever, and how only for you do they live Our bodies filled the nights with heat, and sweet tenderness Almost to tears could you be brought, by my slightest caress The brightest of futures was ahead. For so long I had waited for this I assured you, I would live for your smile, and would die for your kiss Who knows why cursed darkness had to pierce my world of light Only unanswerable questions find me, as my dreams now take flight I find myself remembering all you told me. How could any of it now be true Your professions of undying love and how I could forever count on you When temptation embraced you, why could you not say no Could you not feel my faith reaching, begging for you to go You just weren’t thinking about what would surely happen to us after How your selfish act would be nothing more than my soul’s disaster Now, trust has been forsaken and our whole world falls apart The innumerable tears I cry over you, say enough to my heart The pain suffered by my love, through my eyes it must show I had no way of knowing I’d be here, at this fork in our road To the right is my salvation, to the left I’m summoned by you Your damage to my spirit was much, but why do I hesitate to choose I find myself so much afraid. Can I go on without you I must convince my love to leave. Please, do not do what you do Hoping someday I can forget this pain, I now take my first steps Hoping this fear isn’t forever, I pray I’m not followed by regrets The next time will be better is what they all seem to say Unsure my heart will mend, I’ll try again to find love anywaySometimes, the one we hold closest to our heart and who we fully believe could never cause us any of the pain and suffering that so much of life encompasses, is the same one who ultimately does it 1,000 fold. Written October 23rd, 2001 © on Oct 23 2001 09:43 AM PST, Steve   18 • 13 • 8