And You Call Yourself A Father

You go out of town, you don't even call and tell me goodbye.When I ask how are you, all I get is an e-mail reply. When your day is done I hope you lie in your bed. From feeling bad how you did me, running through your head. You’d better think about your decisions, think about your child life is to short you need to stop running around wild. Remember telling me,we'll do it another day or tomorrow? I got tired of waiting; do you even care about my sorrow? We lost touch, you let a good friendship die cause you never had the time just to call and say hi. I think if I died, you'll be sad and even cry. God knows how much I loved you, when I go don't ask him why. You hurt my heart for years, so I decided to leave you alone. I’m tired of being hurt and crying to you upon thee phone. Remember I’m getting older and all I have is bad memories of you. You’d rather run after another woman then to take the time to just say, "I love you" you better think about that! Women will always be here, the feelings I have for you is now starting to disappear. You didn't teach me how to do nothin, you didn't even change my diaper, things are starting to add up, to tell you the truth I don't even know why I liked ya. I’m tired of un kept promises, and asking you to spend some time. That’s all I wanted you to do, I didn't want you to spend a dime. Was that a crime for wanting my father? Because if it was I needed to be locked up. I was a daddy's little girl, didn't have a care in the world, nothin mattered to me because I was my daddy's little girl. I hope you're sad off this and think about your mistakes what goes around comes around everything’s starting to take place. I have no more tears left to cry, I’m tired of asking my mother why, it makes her sad to see me cry, do you know that all the times you hurt me that I really wanted to die? I tried to understand why you did me the way that you did. I always thought it was me, but I see, you still wanted to be a kid. You should've grown up because at the time I was the kid and you call yourself a father, now you see what you did. I’m a daughter without a father, Garry I’ll never follow your orders. You showed me the worse kinda pain. You want me to respect you, you need to respect me. I respected you and in return I got pain. (Why should I respect someone who doesn't respect their self) I gained no trust in you. You made me sick you better be glad I’m not a boy because I would tell you to suck my ****. I ask you for $5, all you gave me was $2. You made me feel like an unopened gift, thrown away, but it's ok because god don't like ugly remember you're the one getting older, god will make you pay. You better think about that!I won't always be here. the feelings I have for you what feelings? They disappearedMy Father treated me like i was nothing. he was never around. but now he's trying to make up for lost time cause he realizes he will need me!! Written February 7th, 2002 © on Feb 07 2002 08:32 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1