Invisible Tears

i cry these tears you can not see. i cry these tears deep in me. these tears they flow like a silent river. these tears they make me shake and quiver. you were my life you were my dove. your heart was pure and so full of love. i dare not start my life anew. i crave to hear the words 'i love you.' shall i sit here? shall they pay? shall i go on another day? i can't survive since your not here, since your no longer alive. NO! i can't go on another day. i shall not sit here. yes! they will pay. he who has taken my loved one from me. he who has not set my spirit free. my tears are silent but, my tears are not gone. i figure that i must not live on. i lay here tonight with out you my dear. i lay here tonight hiding all my fear. i heard the news i could not bare. they told me what they didn't dare. my friend so loyal by my side. my sadness...so hard to hide. i hate myself for letting you go. my hate will just grow and grow. i kneel down by my bed. wondering if i'm better of dead. this gun sitting here by my skull. wondering if i should be here at all. i think i'd rather like being dead. all these thoughts running through my head. who would miss me? who would not? who would give a single thought? i sit here now with my invisible tears. i sit here now woth my invisible fear. i think of my friend and how said she would be. i think of her and pull the gun away from me. you were my life you were my dove. your heart was pure and so full of love. my tears i stop before i drown. my tears are not gone just turned down. i will always miss you my love. yet i know you are watching from high above. Written October 31st, 2001 © on Oct 31 2001 01:16 PM PST   0 • 8