Untitled (beautiful pain)

"Have you ever stood outsidein the pouring rainat that one instant when you've never felt more freeand miserable at the same timewhen you want to laughand cry    in equal amountsas you feel the droplet..."

"sitting on a couch that doesn't belong to her in a room she barely knows [but it's quiet here, I can write she thinks] just wishing, still hoping for the phone to ring, for things to go, just once, as..."

"It's one of those absolutely gorgeousfall days, when the weather is still warm, sun shining down through the trees, turning orangeand yellow and red, shedding theirleaves like inhibitions upon the gro..."

"Come sit with me  in the shade of the trees    and I'll sing you the song      of the roses,Come, lie with me   in the sycamore leaves    and I'll sing you the secrets      of oceans.I'll sing you a s..."

"and when she's down upon her kneesand she begs you and she pleadsfor you to take her in your heart,to give her one more fresh start,for you to take her by the hand,Do you ever understand?of do you loo..."

"when everything falls awaylike rain on a window,slowly rolling out of meoutside where the wind blows freeI look to the sky to find a piece of methat I lost to the starsand the clouds above          bi..."