when i die

when i die i wonder if when i die anyone will notice that something besides an old lady has left this world will they see the toddler of two bouncing on daddy’s knee will they look at me in my satin lined coffin and realize I’m not just another dead body will they see the young lady of ten and know how much i ‘loved’ the boy who sat across the aisle in school i have brothers and sisters and aunts and uncles and a grandmother of my own these people looking at me will they see this girl of fifteen, hurt because no date for Friday nights game and how wonderful it is at seventeen to be chosen as homecoming queen will they see this young bride being married to my soldier sweetheart i’m all of these inside, and more i’m a young mother of a handsome baby boy and as the years go by there are 4 babies more to raise and love as I was there’s so much more to me than just a shriveled old lady worth nothing now except to look back in memory with failing mind and body i’m me, i’m that girl of ten, that young bride on my wedding day as i lie there in that satin bed that box, just a viewing place and friends and family gaze upon me as they pass, will they see what’s inside of this old lady gone will they see the joy within me a mother, proud of her brood for giving her new babies to love to rock and cuddle close will they know that I’m still here taking all these memories to my grave for they wont find another home .....they’re ME dee garner january 3, 2002 © on Jan 02 2002 06:20 PM PST, Dee Garner   other