The Deepest Recess

Dark desperate thoughts revolve inside my head Spiralling down deeper with every waking moment Self-esteem sinking to an all-time low I’m visiting places never reached before This pit that envelops me seems bottomless Where is the way out? The only path visible appears downwards Comforted by the bleak darkness surrounding me Ensuring I cannot see my true face reflected in light Knowing that Hell is growing forever closer Maybe arriving, stopping anywhere will stop this free-fall Giving me time to take stock and start moving forwards I’m slipping into the darkest reaches of my mind No way forward is clearly visible from here My silent screams fall on barren, stony ground What am I doing? Where am I going? Hell seems just a stones throw away from here Maybe I’m paying the price for my mortal sins Perhaps I’ve been set my sternest life challenge For now this darkness is all I see … Reaching out for an invisible light Looking for an upward step on a descending spiral Where now is my guide, my guardian angel? Moments of solitude when needed the most Could this be a test of mental strength to face alone? Overcoming demons that perpetually haunt me For now, at this time, my resolve is weak I must dig deep to find a hidden inner strength Must this soul face its Goliath alone? To find it’s own pathway forwards Rejoining the light and the path Passing a test of intense personal resolve A battle fought on the longest day My sanity the hard earned prize Defeat is not worth contemplating Even through the mind-sapping attrition I call upon the deepest reserves So I can venture upon the pathway back Leading me out of this deep, dank dungeon Imprisoning my mortal mind Where is the light I crave so much? This battle-weary soul seeks escape To once more embrace the light © Andy..Harding 19/2/02(Just like) Macbeth .... OK So I can have my bad moments too ..... Written February 18th, 2002 © on Feb 18 2002 01:30 PM PST, Andy Harding   0 • 10 • 1