Just a Sister

A sister... Only ever a sister... A buddy; A pal; A friend... Ultimately just a sister... Why am I always.... *sigh* Concidered just a sister? What is it about me? That couldn't make me worthy... Of something just a bit more!?! So many guys I can depend on... Though none of them care... Well at least not in that way. To them... everyone of them....*crys* All I'll only ever be... Is just their sister. They all think that I'm funny.. Basically just a blast to be with. But there's nothing there... Not for me anyway. I don't have anyone to love... I have a million friends... I have a zillion brothers... But not one person to love. One that would love me back... It's twisted really. All I ever wanted was to be happy... Emotionally happy. But I know now I will never have that. I guess it's my fate. To never marry... To never have children... Even though that's all... All I ever wanted from anyone. I never thought the world owed me... If anything I owed it... I guess I'll just be around... I guess I'll just stay as a sister. There's no point to try to deny... All I will ever be is a sister. No matter how hard I try.. I'm just one of the guys. No matter what I do... I'll never have anyone to say... I Love You too. Written April 12th, 2002 © on Apr 12 2002 08:20 AM PST, Jessica Taylor   18 • 0 • 1