Fallen one forever

"Sometimes I feel completely, Out of control. Being utterly alone, And uncareing. Till Imet you, Pretty much everything was the same. My day went off without a hitch. I was never confused, About what I..."

"I wish, I wish, That I had a wish to wish. Pointless as it seems, I live my life through dreams. Dreaming of confusion I created, Unentending my failure to be set free. Dreaming of dreams that make n..."

"I'm bored, I'm just sitting here. I'm tired of this life, I'm not sure I like this face. I sit down, With a bottle of Jim Beam. Drink till I can't remember anything, Till this life is perfect. I'm n..."

"If I just disappear, Will anyone notice? If I just run away from here, Would anyone care? I appear to be happy, When deen inside I feel dead. I never seem to be turely happy, It's like my heart; my s..."

"We will never know, How things could have been. It's all my fault, It was my choice. I caused all the pain, I caused all the problems. I could have been the one to make you happy. This is the saddest ..."

"I walk into a room, But no one notices me. When I'm falling apart; about to scream, They just look right through me. If I look into a mirror, I see no image; only claer clarity. I stop trying to see ..."

"It's dark and cold, There's no light to be found. Colors that were once bold, Seem faded and worn out. There's a place where, No one's wrong; all are free. Where you are what you want, not trying to..."

"It appears as though, I fucked things up. For you; for all, I'm nothing but a fucking curse. I don't give a fuck, About you or anyone else. I never did, It just seemed that way. What you feel is not..."

"As I’m sitting here, MY mind stays completely blank. I’m at a loss as to why, I’m lost and I never think. Things that mattered; I just don’t care anymore. I just stare at the wall, And then I head fo..."

"While I sit here, I wish only to die. People on the out side, Seeing only that I cry. Tears of hate, remorse, and pain, It is building up inside. Pushing; ripping me away again, Leaving nothing bit l..."

"Sometimes I wonder, Why I am here. To me it makes no difference, I hold nothing dear. My heart is a stone, That seems to be hard and cold. My face is like hardened clay, In its stony silence; just w..."

"This Life is harsh, In and out of love; With and without feeling, Honestly what’s the point? If you care about anything, It either kills you or screws you. No matter what happens, This life is a game..."

"I’m cold, I’m tired. I’m just fed up, With this life and its complications. I swear, I must have been dreaming. To believe this life, Would turn out fine. I guess I lost, My sanity and my mind. To bel..."

"It’s strange, To think someone understands me. Knowing that there, Is someone like me. Who knows how I feel, What I’ve been through. What I think, What I might possibly need. A person; so identical ..."

"The sky is dark, As is my soul. There is no light, Down in this deep; dark hole. My eyes are shadowed, Away from the light. There are many tunnels, Away from them I run in fright. I run hard and fas..."

"I dream of a time, When I drempt life away. Living in my fantasy world, A million miles away from me. Dreams so sureal, It's like I'm emersed in darkness. Calming all my pain and fears, Melting away ..."

"I grasp you with a shaking hand. I hold you close and your heart races... Why'd this happen? I don't understand! I cherish our last embrace. You promised you'd alawys be there for me, But I guess I w..."

"I used to get made fun of, And get my ass beat everyday. The motherfuckers from school, Just paved the way. I hate everyone, I see on the street. I don't care what they look like, I just want to beat;..."

"Everyone keeps telling me I'm so bad, All the teachers say, I'm the worst student they've had. So keep on saying, I'm the worst that you've seen. Look at this kid, She's so vulgar and mean. Listen up ..."

"I'm just talking here, With out any doubt or fear. There's nothing to stop me now. I loved only once, What a prick he turned out to be. It's just sad I suppose, That no one really knows. What I'm thin..."

"So strange... I am lost. Unusual for me, I'm concious of everything. So fucked up am I, I've lost my mind. Living through insanity, Or not at all; life just passes. I know not what I think, Nor what..."

"To be or not to be, aye there's the point. To die; to sleep; is that all? Aye, to those damned to fall. No, to sleep, to dream, aye love. There it goes to take flight high above.. For in that dream of..."

"Red tears, For the dear. Black tears, For the fear. Blue tears, For the sad and broken hearted. Gray tears, For the morbid and lifeless. Pink tears, For the happy and loved. Purple tears, For the pa..."

"The cutting, Ah so very blissful. The need to cut, To release my pain; To feel human once again. Feeling the blade slice through my skin... Hearing the blood spill to the floor. Knowing I may not be h..."

"Suicidal tendoncies? Yes I have them all the time. Things like that usually just ease my mind. It's easier to do than to threaten to. My father used to scream, "If you want to die, Then fucking kill y..."

"I used to think, We'd be best friends forever. There was nothing we didn't talk about, Nothing we couldn't tell one another. I trusted you and you trusted me; Why can't this still be the same? Intertw..."

"It's a true travisty. April, that you died and that you're gone. We all cried for you, and miss you. We all want the truth about what really happened. Some who said they were there... They said he was..."

"I went to school today... It seems as pointless as the day I started. Kids screaming in the halls, Haveing fun with people they don't really know.... I walked down the halls, Thinking that this must b..."

"What the hell is a poser? Are you a poser if you hide your true self? Or is that just creating a protective mask? If I acted all happy to hide my true feelings, Would that make me a poser or for real?..."

"Blood runs down the hall... I guess there's no one here at all. If they were still here... They'd have heard the chair fall and see the blood in the hall. They'd hear the rope creaking; slideing on th..."

"In the world, There are many things we think about. Mostly our lives and our, Suicidal tendoncies. Why do we live and breath? Why were we put here? What's the point to this, Fucked up plan anyway? P..."

"What I am... Damn this is gonna be hard to explain! I am basically just a girl. I don't have anything that I won't try. I don't think that if your a girl.... And then you go down on a girl that it mak..."

"I see a sea of blood rushing from my vein... I see the looks of contempt and utter distain. I see everything they asked of me, they wanted... I see all the things I never did or knew. I see it all..."

"I used to love you more than anything.... You are... were... my father...... You used to love me, I was your fucking pride and joy. The thing you wanted most.... a beautiful baby girl. You were so pro..."

"You think that your god's gift.... Oh what a fucking twisted joke! You feel the need to beat and hurt me... To tell me to cut and watch myself bleed. I used to care... I really did..... but not any fu..."

"I screamed and screamed.... But no one came to help me. No one heard the screams of pain. No one saw the blood gushing from my vein. You never heard the knife fall to the floor... You never knew till ..."

"I went to the corner store this morning... I had no Idea what was in store. When I arrived there...there were pink fluffy bunnies near the door! They were standing up on their hind legs... Drinking Bo..."

"I scream and scream.... I scream and still no one comes. I scream from my heart... My mind; My lungs; My soul.. I scream as loud as I can!!!!!! Yet, no one hears me... no one sees me... A nightmare I ..."

"I can't believe this, I'm crying... I never thought I could do that again. Amanda was so depressed, I wanted to hide... But I couldn't leave my friend ripped and torn inside. Love is cruel game I now ..."

"I envy the child, For never knowing true pain. The child is so sweet and mild, Who ever thought the child would go insane? The child grew up; Into a girl. Her expectations went up, No longer did she ..."

"This date... was supposed to be fun. But that's all my fault I guess... I tried to explain to you what I was... But I don't think you understood... I'm manic... once hypomanic but I'm getting better. ..."

"Prince charming was what you seemed to be... Fuck I was so stupid.... you were just another fucking prep. You had to play the childish damn piss test with me... You had to test and push me..... just t..."

"Fire... oh the desire... To burn my skin... To see it melt my flesh. To see it all fall away... Feeling that agonizing pain... As it invades my mind. Vila dolor est.. Life is pain... When it starts ..."

"I just don't know what to say. I just feel empty; untouchable... I know I should feel happy... But I'm utterly and completely... DEVISTADED I don't guess most of this shit matters. Everyone's laughing..."

"A sister... Only ever a sister... A buddy; A pal; A friend... Ultimately just a sister... Why am I always.... *sigh* Concidered just a sister? What is it about me? That couldn't make me worthy... Of s..."