Poser.... or For Real? (18+)

What the hell is a poser? Are you a poser if you hide your true self? Or is that just creating a protective mask? If I acted all happy to hide my true feelings, Would that make me a poser or for real? I believe that I would end up being for real. But a poser well let me think... You lie and then are caught in your lies. You lie to make others pity you, Or to make others want to stand next to you. To be a poser is to play a deadly game with some. If you say are one thing and they know your not, What does it prove? That you lie well? Or does it prove you are as shallow and false as most people seem to be? To make up a new nickname so people wouldn't know you in a casual conversation. Unless of course they saw you on the street or some place else. I am not a poser but you are! You make others pity you, to try to love you. But all you gain is their undying distain of you and what you are. Act as what you are, not as you think you are. Rape, hell's, beatings, abuse, suffering, pain... It takes a strong person after a long time to except these things. It takes someone who is willing to try to deal with it all. That is what it would take to be for real and not a fucking poser. Not getting people to pity you, Or to lie about things that have never happened to you. Not takeing something or someone you love and blaming them. Threatening to die because they got sick of the bullshit. So sick of it they left you and want nothing to do with you. You... the fake one, the shallow, the imature, and clumsy poser. You.... who could never just tell the fucking truth. You..... who just couldn't grow the fuck up like everyone else. You...... who threatened suicide, to leave the blood on their hands. You the true yet unknown and piontless, selfish, useing, fucking lying...                           POSER!!!k so make any sense to u guys? Written March 14th, 2002 © on Mar 14 2002 10:14 AM PST, Jessica Taylor    10 • 0