Silence (18+)

I screamed and screamed.... But no one came to help me. No one heard the screams of pain. No one saw the blood gushing from my vein. You never heard the knife fall to the floor... You never knew till I wasn't there anymore... I never answered back... To all your fucking taunts and dares. I never said anything at all... Maybe because I was to insignificant for you to care... Or maybe because you wouldn't have noticed anyway. It was pointless then to say what I thought. Because pain and suffering was all I got... You screamed you hated me and wished I were dead. You've thrown knives to me and so I bled. I cut and cut..... to you it mattered not. I wasn't something you wanted.... I was what you got. I am the fuckup with the master plan... I will show what happened to my silence. My silence.... what a fool I was! I figured if I kept my mouth shut you'd go away. If I didn't cry, you'd leave me be. If I were like ice you'd fucking leave me alone. Because I was taught with out getting that rise out of me... It was not fun to hurt, belittle, smack or try to humiliate me. But I guess I learned SILENCE was not as golden as they say.. All I got from it were my scars and dismay. I will not longer be SILENT, about anything at all. You piss me off you'll know it! You fucking ever hurt me again I'll make you feel it! You ever touch me again in anyway I will rip you to shreds! NO MORE SILENCE from me.... NEVER AGAIN! You will not walk all over me and expect me to think I should let you! You will never run my life as you have tried to do before. I will not give in this time... NOT THIS FUCKING TIME! I'm not the scared child I was I understand it all perfectly. It has nothing to do with him or me..... IT'S YOU! You are the fucking reason I went INSANE. You have tried to say, "It's Not My Fault!" That I ended up so vile, that I have no respect and I don't care! You try to say I made myself this way... Look in the mirror mother fucker you the one who's to blame. You taught me that SILENCE was the way to go. To not fucking embarass you in public... let it wait for later.. Well this is all I have to say to you... FUCK YOU!!!! FUCK YOUR SILENCE AND FAMILY DEVOTION TOO!and the survey says? Written March 20th, 2002 © on Mar 20 2002 10:21 AM PST, Jessica Taylor   18 • 0 • 1