Abnormal

I wake up every morning With a million things running through my mind Things from what do I have to do today To why behind everyone else I know and the entire world Have I fallen so far behind I try to live right and good In everything from day to day that I do While praying to the lord in the meantime For the courage through these hard times For me to be strong and see them all the way through My mother and I are close But sometimes I fear that the real me She has yet to meet,know and understand I woner wgat she would think if she knew That on a cold night in December Her son's life was almost taken by his own hand I feel as if I was born with a defect Or that something in my brain just didn't quite finish growing Because I've made so many mistakes That the reprecussions from them The rest of the world wold be better off not knowing I keep telling myself that today will be different Today is the day that I will get better and change But it seems that as soon as I'm about to recieve something good I'm picked off just like a sniper's victim At point blank range So I guess I'll keep pushing on And hope that tommorow I'll finally from all this be free But who's to say that will ever happen For someone as abnormal as me Written April 7th, 2002 © on Sep 22 2002 05:12 AM PST   0 • 1