If Not For You

Early in the morning... as I lie awake in bed, Thoughts of you run rampant... with the last words that you said. You always know the things to say... and know just what to do. I guess that is one reason... why I feel such love for you. My life has not been easy... with the problems that I've had, It seems that situations for me... always turn out bad. The little joy I seem to find... is always temporary, And life comes crashing down again... with burdens that I carry. It seems that others go through life... so happy and alive, While it's a constant struggle for me... only to survive. I see the happy faces... as I walk along the street, My life just seems so empty... while all others look complete. If not for you to cheer me up... I'd live in gloom and doom, And probably sit alone and scared... inside some darkened room. But when I sit and contemplate... and feel such emptiness, I wonder if some other people... go through life like this. It seems like all the others... have someone to call their own, And I sometimes feel like I am... the only one alone. But every time I reach a point... of sinking to such depth, You come to me and touch me with... a little happiness. The words you say to pick me up... and make me understand, Gives me hope to carry on... and try to find life's plan. Whenever life seems hopeless... and it's more than I can bear, You always know the words to say... and you are always there. I sometimes feel so guilty... when you say things will be fine, It seems you draw on positives... while all I do is whine. It seems I'm weak and negative... and everything is wrong, While in your constant struggle also... you are always strong. I know that I complain a lot... and live in deep despair, And even in my pain and sorrow... you are always there. I envy you, your strength and wisdom... while I seem so weak, You remain steadfast and strong... and don't accept defeat. I know that life is full of problems... others have them too, And in their pain and sorrow... I just wonder what they do. Does everybody go through this... or do I make it worse, Magnifying pain and sorrow... or is it a curse? I only know that life goes on... regardless of the pain, And every day it is a struggle... even to stay sane. I will deal the best I can... with things that come along, And hopefully, one day, I too... will feel like I am strong. But as for now and days to come... I must take day by day, And cling on to the precious words... that I know you will say. I love you for your honesty... and all you say and do, I do not know how I would cope with life... if not for YOU. ~~James Kisner~~ ~~Poetry begins in delight and ends in wisdom.~~ I've posted this poem at other poetry sites. A lot of people relate to it, so, since my muse seems to be on vacation, I thought I'd share it with you. Written February 26th, 2002 © on Feb 26 2002 11:33 AM PST, Maureen Halasovski    0 • 10 • 8