Heartache of Invisibility
By mystyblu1
Again today, I remain invisible to the one. My heart doesn't just ache, it feels like it has been stepped on, no, jumped up and down on, no, poisoned and I can feel the toxins tearing the tissue to shreds, it hurts so bad. Not sure what I did wrong, must be something big, maybe I used the wrong words, or a harsh tone, I tried to be soft and sweet, like I know the one wants it. I need the one to see me as more than an entity, a person, a distant smile, words on a page, but as a flesh and blood woman. Night after night I lay, visualizing us together, laughing, talking softly, loving, it takes away the darkness and coldness of my existence. I must press on, fool that I am, unable to see clearly, struggling with each passsing second, minute, hour, trying to make sense, trying to be seen. Others yearn for my attention, I spurn them, often with cruel intentions, as my life, my destiny belongs to the one. Written October 22nd, 2001 © on Oct 22 2001 06:36 AM PST 0 • 1
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"Again today, I remain..."