Not Myself

Please don’t yell at me I’m not myself today. I may be smiling outside But my insides aren’t okay. Please don’t make me cry ‘Cause I’m trying to be strong. It’s been one year and counting Since my best friend has been gone Please don’t say mean things Today my minds not right. I can’t defend myself When these tears are hard to fight. Please do no ignore me ‘Cause today I’m not all there/ I need someone to hold me So I know that someone cares. Please do not get angry If I don’t know what to say. I want you to be happy Even when you walk away. Please don’t get upset If I can not pay attention. My mind has gone else where While my heart is full of tension. Please do not be selfish I can not make you smile. I’ll do my best to make you laugh But that will take awhile. Please do not avoid my mask That i’ve put up in vain. I don’t want you to see me hurt Just let me hide this pain. Please don’t think I’m heartless ‘Cause my eyes have been too dry. I promise when the time is right These eyes of mine will cry. But today I must be strong for you As well as strong for me, I promise I will comfort you But... who will comfort me?wrote it for april 22 (the one year anniversary of my friends death) Written April 19th, 2002 © on Apr 19 2002 12:38 PM PST   0 • 1