I Will No Longer

I no longer will wait for you by the seldom opened door, I know so painfully now you won't be knocking there anymore. It's been so long since I heard your laugh, Or made you smile... I'm starting to believe your whole life was but a lie, And I was nothing more then your pawn. I will no longer cry for you every night before I try to sleep again, No longer skip meals to think about the love you told me we had. Now I understand that you were only human, And you, being only human, Will make mistakes, And promises, And they will not be kept, They cannot be kept. I will no longer expect you to call me once again, Never expect a card or a letter. For now I know so undoubtably you won't be thinking of me again, For you have moved on, And now you love him, As you told me you would love me, Forever. I will no longer wait for you at my door, For now I so painfully know you will not be coming home again. He is better then I ever was, You love him more then you ever loved me, I just hope he realizes that, Or never shall he have you to keep. I will no longer cry for you every night before I try to sleep, For now I understand why you left, Why you will never come back. I will no longer expect you to call me once again, 'Cause now I hear, ringing in my head, The reasons why you had to leave, Had to run without leaving me a message, Without one final kiss, Without one last moment so bliss. Now I know you will never again be at my door, Because you found someone better then I, But you will always be locked in my heart, Held in my heart, Warm in my heart. Written October 25th, 2001 © on Oct 25 2001 02:39 PM PST   0 • 8