Surprise

i've been ditched again, and this is twice the feeling from it, isn't very nice the feeling of hurt fills my heart the feeling i got from the very start when she started lying to me and letting me down when most of my smiles were turned to a frown atleast for awhile, things went well so, u ditched me again, oh what the hell its not a big deal, maybe im just a baby or i could just be really hurt, maybe you can't imagine how much faith i had in you not expecting this is what you would do why can't you return half the respect and love i give maybe then i'd have more reason to live knowing then i wasn't walked on as much so cutting myself wouldn't have to be my crutch i could just live and be happy all of the time or maybe in your eyes, my being happy's a crime who knows what your thinking but your actions show some if u don't realize i see u don't wanna be with me, u must think im dumb you show me daily who's more important in your head it surely isn't me, but i don't wanna be dead i know sometimes you care about me, sometimes even love me but everything i would and have done for you, i'd like you to see you are so ungrateful, self centered too the only thing u care about is you no matter how hard i try to show you i care you would rather have someone else who doesn't there but that's your thing, there's nothing i can do i just wish u could see, that i really love youIt's a stupid poem really.....I don't like it much. Written December 30th, 2001 © on Jan 06 2002 08:34 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1