You're Gone

i finally stood up for one thing i believe and in return, rejection is what i receive i know i've done wrong, but i've also done right our friendship should not have ended in this terrible fight you have a reason to be mad at me, but i should be mad too how many more times can i try to get that through to you it isn't really fair but i will eventually take all the blame cuz i know it will not matter, u'll hate me still the same you act like our whole friendship was bad and i made your life hell i was always paranoid around you, trying to make you happy, but oh well it's been awhile but i still can not let everything go i know it's a hard process and i know it'll be slow losing someone you love is the hardest thing you'll ever have to do you'll think about it daily, seeing that they're not with you hurting cuz they're happy and hurting cuz you're sad but then again being happy cuz u remember good times you had being more sad than happy cuz u know this person is gone and still not knowing inside just how you're going to move on crying still all the time remembering how you had some fun and crying even harder cuz you know this is all done not knowing how to move on, but trying not to go back for more because you know inside, you'll get hurt more than before but wanting just to talk to them, no matter if it's good or bad cuz u know either way, you're still going to be sad no matter what they say to you, you'll still love them the same being confused as to who should take all the blame you want to apologize constantly, try to make them like you again they say maybe someday, but inside you can't be happy cuz ure only thinkin when knowing inside you'll wait forever but not sure if its worth the wait because what if the friendship turns out again to be just hate searching desperately for answers, but trying to be happy too it will take awhile for me to be happy though, without youya Written March 20th, 2002 © on Mar 20 2002 12:05 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1