Bewilderment

I love you I cant stand to be without you I need your essence close to mine I need your lips pushing unto mine Why did you leave me? Was there a real reason? I dont see what it could have been After saying you loved me so much After everything we had together Everthing that was still to be You left How could you You pulled me out of everything I was Then left me hanging by a thread How did you do it so well With out me having a clue You have killed me You never have cared You never will You never loved me And you never will Is this what you wanted Is this what you truely had in mind Because this is what you are getting A life devoted to hate Pain Suicide Killing My cold being was never meant to be I have lived this lie long enough Its time to finish off what is already dead Its time to kill the last of what could have never lived Falling I reach out to embrace Whatever may come to be  I wont be here much longer Its bewildering to me To just do this to the one you loved so much It makes no sense But what makes sense now that your gone There is not one reason to stay here Here in the cold Without anyone to comfort me Without anyone to be mine forever Without you Written February 16th, 2002 © on Feb 16 2002 07:05 AM PST    18 • 0 • 8