Black And Blue

Im somewhere I dont wanna be A place without you But I had no choice but to come here You pushed me You left me that dreadful day I cant stand this empty place I never wanted to be here agian After I tasted you I cant watch myself As the knife runs down my arm Creating new scars for all to see I cant bear to be in this life without you Please come back I know you wont Your to busy with him When he hurt you For her You were planning on the drastic I couldnt let you I was there to stop you But who will be there for me Now that you hurt me For him Must I pursuade you another way to come back I must change myself even more But I cant change what has been done already I dont like this reality I want to live the lie I called home I want to be in your arms I want to be kissing you I want to feel you so close to me I need you You left me that day Leaving me shackled in your prison I cant live here anymore Some say I will snap soon Some say that armageddon is close Some say my end is near I hope so I could use a perement vaction from this damp secluded prison I cant see how anyone could live like this It isnt fair This is ridiculos What did I do to deserve this All of this pain I cant believe its all over I want this to be a big test I want it to end right now A tidal wave is passing over me Drowning me In hate Dismal Pain Depression This is just one big festuring lifeless pit I cant go on Not anymore My compassion is broken My will eroded My desire stolen Im on my knees and burning in pain My soul is black and blue Im broken I look up to see the enemy I look up to see you I swallowed the poison I am dead inside You left me with no choice But to try and build myself agian To much To far To late To even try Am I no one to you Am I nothing My hatred Guilt And weakness Have overcome now I will set myself free from you I must cleanse myself I must take myself away I cant stand to live like this Afriad and weak I have no choice but to leave you In this hole I have dug As I climb in I take a picture of you out of my poket Kiss it goodnight Say I love you Shut the door to my eternal prison Smell the fresh wood of my casket And take the razor to my wrist And say goodbye Written February 16th, 2002 © on Feb 16 2002 07:08 AM PST    18 • 0 • 8