Dark and Depressing Nights

I sit and stare into the blackness As it greets me with it’s soothing Grin, that enticing grin that enthralls me Enticing me to come closer and abide within I don’t know how I keep finding myself here Or why I choose to stay within the darkness Wishing to be freed from it all, yet far too Weak to change anything from the way it is So, breathing in deeply, I breath my own Hated air, and keep walking within my Daily facade, and stare at all the people Who make my own existence unbearable The sun shines, even when I wish it would Fade out, and bring it’s cold chill, and let Me meet the end of it all, sooner than has Been planned, yet it always shines, and will Tomorrow, when I awake from a better place Nothing will greet me again, and so as I shower I let the dreams that will never be, drain into The sewage, dressing myself in the facade To keep people happy, to keep them from worry To save myself the time to explain to them, and To stay where I’m ‘supposed’ to be, damn It all, and everything else that I think about I have no future, I don’t know where to begin So, you see, the darkness is all I have that I can Claim that is truly with me, for I don’t even Have the comfort of warm flesh to hold, in these Dark and depressing nights ...sigh......goodnight Written March 2nd, 2002 © on Mar 01 2002 04:08 PM PST   0 • 1