reality

"Chilling wind against my skin Breathing its breath of death on my neck ; Holding me close, caressing me - The only thing that caresses me - This chilling wind ; Blowing my hair out of place And free..."

"Pitch black silence and white fear Vomiting madness as hearts tear Dipping my lips in the cup of bliss Brainwashed that only I can do this- With one fateful slit of the wrist . Written January 1st, 2..."

"I am blinded by this light Demon possessed i have lost my sight Tremendous beauty is all I see Visions of rapture surrounding me Lost in a maze of ecstacy So high i cannot see An orgasmic thrill ha..."

"Drunk , dizzy and confused yet overwhelmed with joy, All i see is grey and bursts of bright yellow flashing before my closed eyes , Blinded by life -- unable to see death ; My lips wet with living , ..."

"The waves lap my feet playfully Leaving a design of white foam around my ankles I am enticed and i accept their invitation I wade knee high through the sea of blue crystal And giggle as the green f..."

"8 glasses of water Pretty , sweet , blue water; 8 thoughts to comfort me ; Memories of drunken stupor , euphoric times ; Memories of orgasmic heights - thoughts of mirthless pleasure Hopes of comfort..."