Because He Said No

For so long I endured all this pain How well did I hide it No one ever knew They didn't even blink an eye Silent in my room I didn't cry Why? It would make no use No one opened their ears to the sounds from my room Only one small door of escape It lied in a single being In that being was a voice A voice similar to mine. I listened intently for days, weeks, and months Letting some small part of me out in the process But every time my pain was empty, it was filled once more. I was never empty I was always filled with hate Pain Suffering Tears No escaping it I had enough of it No more! His words echoed in my head His amazing words filled with what powers this hate Filled with compassion, tears, and everything inside of me Enough I finally got it out I was empty I was satisfied But my satisfaction came with consequence He ripped it from my hands He grabbed the only thing I had left he grabbed his words, his love He grabbed the hammer He shattered his words He shattered all of it I now had no escape So what would I do? I cried I cried to him I cried to Eric, to help me He couldn't hear me then He was to far away But I heard him He echoed in my head He spoke to me He told me to hold on He told me to put it away Drop the knife It wasn't the end I wouldn't be He wouldn't let me I smiled He smiled I saw a light at the end of the tunnel and I reached I ran out of it and saw the sun I still cried I still died inside I still do even now But he spoke to me He said no Written December 28th, 2001 © on Dec 28 2001 03:01 AM PST    18 • 0 • 1