Living in the Parallels

Smothered by darkness The warmth of my pain Emerging in the parallels Of my life The light at the end of the tunnel The greenness on the other side Valedictorian One hundred percent Was given this time I want to go Somewhere less dangerous than here I am so weak I won’t make it alone I need your help Take me out Put you in Pushing and pulling Again and again I can’t be your sacrifice Don’t kill me as you plan Try for once to be a man And pick me up Take me out of this prison This darkness in which I rest Used to be so dry and cold I have laced it with tears Dampened the walls Burned the pain Into the fire I creep I run Let go I won’t live like this anymore Running through the catacombs Stretching out the walls Closing in Departure Don’t leave me here The wall of spikes Incapable to reach As of now My pain is rising The adrenaline I need I cannot afford Anymore Free the beast Come clean Forgive and forget Today Open the casket Place yourself amongst the bed of roses Dig Rush Fly Loosen the grudge Pull the plug Empty my being From this insanity Release the blood Release the fear In me I cannot see through the fog This blanket of darkness I’m withering No longer am I strong It’s about to close I’m captivated Deliberately You try to see through The way it used to be It’s over now Time stands still The clock won’t strike Until you have made your kill Beaten Shredded Torn How awful Look at me What am I to you? Is it that easy to just destroy me? Have you not a soul at all? Seeing and hearing I taste this pain In the parallels of my life In the dampness of my hole In the catacombs of what’s never to be I am damned to never be rescued From your heart Written January 25th, 2002 © on Jan 25 2002 09:54 AM PST    18 • 0 • 1