Pendulum

I cannot see through your eyes What makes you think I can? Grace? Charm? In me? Then believe in me All you did was throw me away Am I nothing for you? Lying here By myself Alone at the mouth of this pit The pendulum ticks Back and forth It’s growing near I’m dying Please spare me This time I need you It’s getting faster Coming to a close Ticking and ticking fast Barely grazing my neck I bleed Scarlet tears leave my body For you Can’t you see? You meant everything to me When you left You left me with nothing It’s empty here Here in my heart I’m alone once again Thanks for never being there I can’t hold on much longer I haven’t the time Not now Alone here at the foot of the pit The pit of doom I’m damned to reside Forever more Crying Trying Dying Fighting To get free From it all Your shackles Your chains Your pendulum Still ticking and ticking fast I must let go My hands are numb I can’t go on Not without you I can’t withstand the pain The anguish I feel It’s too much for me I’m frail and tattered You did this to me What dignity? What doubt? There was no doubt I was in love with you Blood trickling Blade slicing Chopping at my soul My life is gone The pendulum encloses Clock strikes twelve Tied down, I’m helpless Tied down by your soul It’s final tick to the left It swings once more Slicing my neck To it’s final extent My lifeless being now lies before you Tears upon your cheeks Turns out the doubt was there Doubt in whether you should go But what’s left now? I’m gone Through your tears you smile grimly Throwing me into the bleak pit Slamming my body Against the wall I continue to fall Written January 12th, 2002 © on Jan 12 2002 08:56 AM PST    18 • 0 • 1