This Feeling Inside

I can*t help but cry This feeling is killing me inside Slowly I*m drifting away Off into a sea of dreadful thoughts You can see the pain in my eyes Even when I smile and laugh The act I put on everyday Is so fake it becomes real over again You love me, I know this But still I feel alone inside I used to be truly happy But no, not anymore You hug me and care for me But I just can*t overcome this feeling A feeling of loss, of hate And why it*s haunting me, I do not know But sometimes I just feel like dying My biggest fear is loosing myself Sometimes I just get so deep into my thoughts And I attempt the worst thing You know of this thing You say if I go that you will go as well And even in this sad state I cannot bare To take you with me to this torturous lair Why must you go too? Nothing this bad should happen to you I love you so much, don*t you see? I don*t want to be the cause of you dying But what I have noticed now that I didn*t before Is that sometimes it takes more than words To truly say how you feel What you have done is shown me what love really means You*ve saved me times before And I know the next time I decide I want to go You will save me again with your love and your faith Thank you for all you have done I love you now and I will for eternity Written December 28th, 2001 © on Dec 28 2001 01:11 PM PST    18 • 0 • 8