Until Then

Sitting here alone every night Locked up in your prison A prison you too should occupy I’m scared It’s empty inside me You seeped into my heart Laced me with terror and disease Took all the love out All I feel is hate With a side helping of pain You have abraded my soul Locked me away in this abattoir You’ve abolished me Threw me out Like garbage How could you do this to me? I thought you loved me I would leave if I could, but I’m too weak Too weak to even pick myself up off the floor To reabsorb the love you once fed to me Would fill me with resplendence But I am too weak now to even hope You hurt me too bad I was never mean or hateful But also never sincere I’m sorry That couldn’t be the cause of goodbye You had to have an ulterior motive Were you just a wicked con? To delicately take me in your arms Just to slam me into the pit I reside in now? Whatever the reason You still lie absent from my lonely lips Please return I need you I don’t know how much longer I can withstand This pain is overwhelming I love you I would have never expected pain from you Before now Incendiarism Inability Deception Fore shame You really let me down Because I believed in you You were strong Very wrong What made you give in this way? Please tell me now For if I know what did it to you Then maybe I could wipe the blood that pours from my arm But until then I’ll see you againwrote it in in house :\ Written January 10th, 2002 © on Jan 10 2002 08:09 AM PST    18 • 0 • 1