What You Don't See

Look into me Tell me what you see My eyes Full of depth and perfection All you’re seeing is deception They’re full of lies and mistakes My lips Plush and full of pretty secrets How deceiving They behold my tragedies and my pain My hands Cute and full of creativity No way you mean the same hands that have hurt me Many times before My heart So pure and full of love I Doubt it Chipped and faded Drained of life Chocked full of misery My soul You see something clean and untouched Wrong It’s worn and tarnished Weak and frail Me You see a little child filled with schoolgirl dreams Well, to tell you the truth I’m full of pain, sorrow, angst, and death Just let go of everything I seem to be And realize this insanity I’m not all you think I am I’m much more, but negatively Look into me And you’ll see everything The emptiness The hate The darkness from within Will seep out of my veins unto you You seem to really care But you aren’t seeing all that’s there My pain, my anguish, and my tears You think I’m strong I’m frail and weak You think I’m warm and content But I’m frozen and morose Look into me Don’t you see? I’m not what you’ve expected of me I’m death and demise Not your most valuable prize I’m hateful and discontent Not passionate and loving I’m deceiving and filled with lies Just look into these tear-filled eyes I’m dying inside I can’t see what you see So I understand how you can’t see the truth This is all what you don’t see But what you’re seeing Isn’t me Written December 28th, 2001 © on Dec 28 2001 04:24 AM PST    18 • 0 • 10