Soul Undying

Darkness blankets me like a death canopy. A haze of white liquid fog covers my mind. I hang suspended in space. Forever wandering, searching. Where is my soul? My substance cries out for relief. Relief of the pain. Of the wanting. Each night I reach out. I climb the ladder once more. But it is useless. I am forever descending. Doomed through eternity. The world is wide. Yet, I find no peace. My body hangs out there. Somewhere. Rotting on a tree. Decayed. Uncried for. Alone. Once I walked with the Great One. He was gentle and kind. He taught me wonderous things. But I turned a deaf ear. The color of gold clouded my vision. Greed grew in me like a fertile seed. Watered and nurtured by my endless needs. He choose me long before He came into this world. Choose me to betray Him. But how was I to know that? Oh, wretched man, why didn't you tell me? I still can remember You standing in the garden. I kissed You. You lips burned me. Oh, sweet Saviour, forgive me. Set me free. Free from this self-imposed cell. I'm tired. This wandering must cease. The voices and deeds of a hundred Judas' travel with me. They're forever at my side. Oh, God, release me. Give me peace. PEACE ! Written November 2nd, 2001 © on Nov 01 2001 11:59 PM PST   0 • 13