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sitting sedately, almost meditative in fact no anger left to tear away at the tattered remnants of my soul existing in this moment, time is stilled it seems, no sound breaks through this wall of glass where i can see, yet be unseen, know life and love...forward into any time zone with a click go halfway round the world in the blink of one eye, shy of all encounters less than these which then, goes first?  which of us to walk through to the other side of this flickering blue unreality?  leave it then, a testament to the times when love was more than words life was more than dreams fill the glass once again with liquid bite drink then, searing insides with it's fire, lighting fuses, chemical... bombs away!!! a laugh escapes, surprising me, breaking the silence, but leaving glass intact...i thought it might be shattered, no, not a crack i thought it would be harder to let go of all i'd kept, but when i looked it over, calculating hours slept through living it made more sense then, life is not for walking dead, feelings so numbed from all the hurts and fears, drowned in tears now  i ffeel ittakin hold, last stepps blurrred ssigt  ddimmmingg light... as...........sorry for the gloominess...bad stretch of time, topped off by a worse night...just venting and wallowing i suppose, written in 5 minutes, no edits... Written March 7th, 2002 © on Mar 06 2002 04:55 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1