Betrayal..

Betral. New? No, Not at, All. Since when? Last year? Begining of, Highschool? Begining of, Elementary, School. Alway, Betrayed! Matt.. Pat.. Jeff.. Rocko.. Girls too. Many. Names, Forgotten.. Angry. Bitter. Closed. So closed, Now. Noone, Not you. Not him. Not her. May enter. I'm closed. She, Got in. I let her. To close. Burned, Again. I fear, The flame. But, I never avoid. I try. I stay closed. I become closed. I keep closing. I will close. Never, To open. Alone. I am, Alone. I live, Alone. I think, Alone. I dream, Alone. Always, Alone. One.. Always, Gets in. I regret. I don't, Expect to. But, I do. Anger. Regret. Fear. Paranoia. Hatred. It's, Killing me! Dieing, Inside. The wall, Once fallen. Decayed... Broken down. Now, Rebuilding... Rebuilt. I am, Closed. You, Try to, Get through. Banging, On this, "Mad buggers wall." You, Break, A brick. I, Build, Two bricks. You, Reach out. I, Recoil. Leave me! Help me! Save me! Burn me? You will, You have. You can't, Help it. The Cycle. Many, In life. I can't, Break it. I must, Yield to it. I, Will hide. In, My walls. You, Can't hurt, Me here. The door, Is locked. No bell. No buzzer. No knocker. Leave me. Hold me. Push me. Pull me. Break me. Burn me. You, Knew me, You thought. I thought. You didn't. Like him, You burned. I trust non. I must, Trust one. All I have, Have burned. I see, The flame. Take a risk? Not again. Closed. Non, May enter. LEAVE ME! LOVE ME! HATE ME! PUSH ME! PULL ME! STRETCH ME! STRAIN ME! ...Kill me....... Written January 15th, 2002 © on Jan 14 2002 05:23 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1