Slipping Away

I live my life Just like I want to Rejecting any notion of God Nobody to answer to There is no right There is no wrong Nature rewards only The smart and strong I congratulate myself On new found freedom Friends try to warn me I think who needs them But something changed When I hopped that fence Life slowly twisted Into making little sense Perhaps my conscience A little at a time died Starting slowly to Believe all my lies Nothing and No One Stopping me or staving Freedom now to explore Darkest realms of sensual craving Regardless of the harm Doing what I felt best Using some just for fun Not caring about the rest But something changed When I hopped that fence Spiraling into a strange new world Further making less and less sense I seem to be losing Which way is up or down My mind drowning in thoughts Spinning round and round But this is my life and I’ll do what I choose My life’s only motto To mine own self be true Losing touch with reality Of what was right and wrong Was it love people and use things Or the other way around I’m so confused But at the same time don’t care For to admit wrongdoing I do not to myself dare But something changed When I hopped that fence Sinking into a dimly lit world Making absolutely no sense I have a home now all alone In a quiet place down the hall Pretty trees outside my room The people here are nice all People stop by Every now and then To remind me of a time When we were friends Tragic part about all this Though folks say it’s too bad What has happened to me Doesn’t make me really sad I still am my own master No one to answer to but me Although tis true somebody else To my door owns the key I did the right thing With my short life But to hear it from someone else Sounds strangely nice They tell me now That I am insane But life to me is nothing less Than just a silly game So I guess this is where I will presently stay Passing my time alone Still slipping away Written October 2nd, 2001 © on Oct 02 2001 01:45 AM PST   0 • 1