Frightend One

So many things are left, that I wanted to say, The words were right in my throught, till Frightened got in the way. "Don't say that you stupid little girl, You now he doesn't love you any more," That's what the jackass said, As I thought in the dark, just lying in my bed, He never let me shine, He's just standing there watching me, all of the time. Sorry I'm so annoying, I'm always bugging you, But sometimes you know it's good to have attention too. I guess I'm just as bad as the frightend one in my head, Always telling me i'm wrong for what I had said, He's too damn busy complaining, about how scared he is, That he doesn't see it's raining, inside of his, Heart, just like it is in mine, He's just standing there watching me, all of the time. The rest of me calls him, Mr. Impossible, Everyone else knows him as, a Frightend obstacle. He's leaving me closed off, with a mouthfull to say, And evertime I get the courage, he just jumps in the way. Just like you do to me, I aways try to be, The helpful one for you, But you don't let me get through. I always get scared of you, and just back out... That's why you'll never know what the look in my eye's are about. But just so you know, I'll always be here, Just to talk, to lend an ear. I'm sorry about what I had said, It's playing over again in my head, Because you haven't lost me forever, I'll be here to make it better, Or at least try my best, I'm not like all the rest, Who are there, just trying to look cute for you, Because I want to support you too. Even though you don't need me here, I don't want to loose you, that's what I fear, And just like the frightend one said to me, All of these words are going to drown in your sea, That's okay if you don't understand Because one day I will stand, And say all the thing's I've wanted to say, But the frightned part in me always gets in the way, Sometimes I don't even know just who I am, But I really don't care if you give a damn, Take for granted every breathe I take, Turning your back on me was a mistake, But now that I know you, I can't do the same, And just because I care, don't give me the blame, Becuase now I just try to tell you how I feel, And the things around are so surreal, And everything that I've ever tried to say to you, Maybe never got quiet through, Only because of the frightened one inside of me, Never left me be, But there's still so much more I've wanted to say, But you know, he's always gotten In the way. Written February 10th, 2002 © on Feb 10 2002 02:02 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1