nothing is cloud [rape me my love]

so what is real nothing i ask you kill me inside with rape in mind it why am i sick? Mama im so sorry you tried so hard i hate me im ugly so get the fuck out go away from my mind if you search long enough you wont like what you find these demons inside raping my mind this lead is so lovely so kiss me my bullet pretty chalk the outline i repent for my sins im bleeding within all i want is to love returns with the urging to rape stifle these whispers and letting them fester will i survive them next time? you love me despite i love your beauty your light without you im lost i feel control wearing thin shit i'm drinking again kill inside my mind everything alive fuck this bloody slut and cut the pretty throat of my love the blood runs and im numb now this side of my subconscious has won no images lie behind my eyes i am dying what the fuck have i done fuck fate my finger pulls away i look down the shiny barrel of the gun Written January 8th, 2002 © on Jan 08 2002 12:52 PM PST    18 • 0 • 10