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Ruin

By underthebelljar

Topics: Poetry Source: AllPoetry Original source

It's every single time That it happens again Once again And it's my own fault And my own stupidity And I try to learn From my mistakes But, wait there I go again And Again... Again... I build my house With cards And here comes the wolf To blow them down Only it's not him It's me My hands shake The cards sway Fall to the ground And it's always A losing hand These events grow Tiresome I punish myself Once again Through sleepless nights I always get so far So close to OK Then I blow it Push it all away Because I just can't stay When I have a phobia Of order and calm When every day feels the same I crave chaos I can't live this way Written January 20th, 2002 © on Jan 20 2002 03:01 PM PST   0 • 1

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